'He went out...'

Well hello there! After 3 days of sunshine (that has to be some kind of a record for Scotland), it's raining again and so I'm cosy inside again...heater, blanket and tea to keep me company. We've had such a lovely weekend, filled with sunshine, picnics, icecream, mini golf at St Andrews, charity shopping, lunch with friends, and movie nights in, it was deliciously perfect! At a conference/reunion on Saturday, the question we were asked most often was 'how are you settling in?' (and also 'It's warm, why do you have a jumper on!?', to which my internal reply was 'because it is not warm, no siree!'). Am I allowed to say 'I don't know?', 'I'm not sure?' I feel as though I don't know so many things. At times I feel quite helpless. I miss the good old days of knowing things. I do wonder though, if those times of 'knowing things' were of reliance on myself, when really, my confidence, trust, accountability and knowledge needed to be elsewhere.

'He went out, not knowing where he was going —Hebrews 11:8


Have you ever “gone out” in this way? If so, there is no logical answer possible when anyone asks you what you are doing. One of the most difficult questions to answer in Christian work is, “What do you expect to do?”You don’t know what you are going to do. The only thing you know is that God knows what He is doing. Continually examine your attitude toward God to see if you are willing to “go out” in every area of your life, trusting in God entirely. It is this attitude that keeps you in constant wonder, because you don’t know what God is going to do next. Each morning as you wake, there is a new opportunity to “go out,” building your confidence in God. “. . . do not worry about your life . . . nor about the body . . .” (Luke 12:22). In other words, don’t worry about the things that concerned you before you did “go out.”

Have you been asking God what He is going to do? He will never tell you. God does not tell you what He is going to do— He reveals to you who He is. Do you believe in a miracle-working God, and will you “go out” in complete surrender to Him until you are not surprised one iota by anything He does?


Believe God is always the God you know Him to be when you are nearest to Him. Then think how unnecessary and disrespectful worry is! Let the attitude of your life be a continual willingness to “go out” in dependence upon God, and your life will have a sacred and inexpressible charm about it that is very satisfying to Jesus. You must learn to “go out” through your convictions, creeds, or experiences until you come to the point in your faith where there is nothing between yourself and God.
My Utmost for His Highest - Oswald Chambers - Jan 2nd